In this series, I work with the painted image as a tool for capturing a transformed state of perception, searching for “lost happiness.” Wonderland emerged after the loss of my father, who had been ill for a long time - a personal grief that occurred against the backdrop of the collapse of familiar and cherished life.

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The series was created after a trip to Thailand - a moment when personal emptiness collided with a visually rich, “festive” environment. I am interested in the gap between outward form and inner content. Bright resort landscapes, decorative elements, and colors of leisure and pleasure are devoid of human warmth: the people here are anonymized. They exist as shells - recognizable, attractive, but internally empty.

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By working with this contrast, I explore a state in which reality continues to appear prosperous, while the personal experience of loss renders it flat and detached.

For me, it is important not only to capture emptiness but also to attempt to find a “new harmony” within it - through the rhythm of lines, color balance, and recurring motifs. It is a search for a fragile equilibrium between loss and the continuation of life, between absence and the possibility of a new inner order.

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At this point, my practice exists at the intersection of personal experience, memory, and the perception of the visual environment. These works capture a moment between pain and numbness, where harmony is lost but gradually reconstructed from fragments of perception, redefining reality in a new way.